Suicide

[pixie464]

Today when my dad dropped me off at university they were stopping all the cars and there were police every were, not only the normal campus security and local police any way some poor girl committed suicide on campus, I felt so bad they wont let out who and how, at the moment we’ve been trying to squeeze stuff out of the professors, but only a few will talk.

[migimaru]

Whoa... that's scary... I hope everyone else is all right over there.

[pixie464]

there are three stories going around the first is that the girl commited suiside the secound is that she tryed to blow her self up or put fire to her self and the last is she was kidapped and murded. the laast one was going round with the boys so is probly just a rumer but it's for sure that some one died.

[renaye]

i now think suicide is a waste of life. once you are dead you won't be able to achieve your dreams. and that i would never want to commit suicide. the stupidest reason to commit suicide i find is breaking up. i could never comprehend why people want to kill themselves just because they suddenly feel unwanted. there are sick people who are going to die want to live so badly but didn't have the chance to do so and while some just give away their live so easily..

[Penguin]

I used to be a paramedic (our rescue service is based upon volunteer paramedics who do it in their free time), though technically I still am, just not active anymore. I've seen all kinds of suicide. Poison, hanging, carbon monoxyd, firearm, car into any random thing (walls, rivers, lakes, other cars, trains), knife, once even a huge saw used for cutting timber...

You get used to it after a while. Cause really, for those who are called to the scene it's no difference whether someone committed suicide or was killed in some other way. You still have to do your duty, usually as long until what we call NAW - Notarztwagen comes (that's the ambulance with an emergency doctor, who's trained for emergency situations on scene). Only the doctor can pronounce them dead. Of course, in clear cases we'd not do anything. Most graphic things where my buddy and I didn't bother to do anything and just waited for the police was the saw and a shotgun... now that was... phew... Luckily we were used to such damage due to all the idiots who have to speed their cars and then can't handle them. Otherwise... yikes.

Let me tell you, I don't smoke, but after some cases I've seen I needed a cigarette. Otherwise I don't think I could have handled it.

I can't agree with Renaye. Suicide... you have to consider, what drives a person that far? I mean, it must really be something horrible for that person. Otherwise they wouldn't even remotely consider killing themselves. From my experience... I can't judge them, I don't have the right. I don't have the right to tell them "Look, it could be worse" or "Look, there's people who're off worse than you", stuff like that. They have their reasons and for them those reasons are bad, really bad.

As a paramedic we also did regular transports (patient taxi, fun), usually old women (oh they really loved us young, dashing, stalwart and heroic paramedics :D ), but sometimes we had patients with mental problems. Sometimes people on antidepressants and... Frankly? From that experience alone I would never take antidepressants. Never. Depending on the medication some really were like zombies. Totally zoned out, only because of the medication. A friend of mine was on this stuff too, what he described made me even more sure not to take this stuff, ever. I really hate it when journalists describe anti-depressants as "life saving drugs". I suggest they take some for a month and then comment. What my friend told me was "flat line", all emotions, all of them, totally gone, of course, the depressions were gone too, but so were the small and short sparks of feeling good. Plus all the side-effects which, as he said it, lowered the quality of life even more, at least for him. And let's not get into psychotherapy. I don't trust psychologists. Everytime I have to deal with one, he or she is an idiot. And I mean idiot. They always seem to know everything, but in the end they throw around with flowery phrases.

In the my friend blew his brains out. It sucks, yes, but... I can't judge his actions. He made his choice. I can, ultimately, only accept it. Still, I think I was off better than a good friend of mine, who got a call from one of her friends who then thanked her for their long friendship. Next day local fire brigade had to cut him off a support beam in a barn. Hung himself.

People don't kill themselves because they suddenly feel unwanted. That process takes a long time. Years. Usually hidden from view. These people are often really good at hiding their condition.

I don't know, if I would be in a similar situation... Well, chances that I get there are small, but it can always happen. There's no guarantee that it won't happen.

I'm rambling, smack me.